Trick Of The Mind

I think I must have watched too much Disney as a child. I wish I could blame the wildly romantic Princess Bride for my unrealistic view towards romance but I only discovered it a couple of years ago. I am viewing love and relationships with more and more cynicism these days due to the fact I can't seem to find the fairytale love story.

It's a bit pathetic really and only confirms how I still have a lot of mental maturing to do! Still, I am very aware that our brain chemicals merely play tricks on us, filling us with lust for particular people, making sure we get together in a whirlwind of excitement only for it to wear off a few months down the line. By that point you are settled into a mundane routine with your best friend. It seems the best option then to marry your best friend. You'll be sorted for life and won't get too depressed when the looks fade.

A lot of my peers have a similarly bleak view on romance. There isn't just one for us all, no dashing prince to take us away and change our lives. This whole idea is slowly sinking into my brain now and at my age I feel I am looking for a life partner rather than a bit of fun (I'm only mid twenties but society makes me feel I should be married by now or at least have one child). Oh the pressure, the pressure! I thought I was a very headstrong woman who didn't care what others thought...but deep down I care a lot.

Bloody Disney!

When I look through my window at work I see a sign for the Bereavement Suite...

Working in a hospital is one constant subconcious reminder about death.

I also get a visual reminder every day when I come into work and gaze through the metal bars on my window. Just to the right is a large white sign with only two words on it and an arrow pointing right.

Bereavement Suite.

No wonder I am like Wednesday Addams and Daria rolled into one most days. Apparently my situation could be turned into a creepy film noir. It would certainly be bleak.

I am slightly blank of mind today. Think I'm getting tired of waiting for Spring. England appears to have had a 6 month winter.

Why do people holiday here? I understand and appreciate the beauty but the climate, this freezing weather that appears to be getting worse, surely it puts you off?

Don't get me wrong, after spending years of my childhood yearning for an American life I love it here now. I guess after months of cold I'm getting a little irritated with it all.

Well I'm sure if you were having a bad day that this cheery blog made you feel loads better!

I'll be back with positivity and rainbows next time.
Maybe.